Bakla Ako, May Reklamo?

Last year, I decided to take down all my accounts in gay social networking and dating sites.  Some thought that I made that decision because I was already in a relationship and that my newfound lover asked me to take them down.  Wrong.  I only took them down on impulse – with no reasonable reason. Ano ba yung reasonable reason?

I was secretly hoping that Mr. Right (or even just a new Mr. Right Now) would come sweep me off my feet because of what I did.  It did not happen.  Mr. Right didn’t come into my life.  Nor did Mr. Right Now. Read the rest of this entry »

“Ano ka ba, para kang bakla,” said my high school classmate to me after I did (or said) something (which I now forget).

“Bakla naman talaga ako eh. Hindi mo alam?” was my response. One said to another: “Eh ikaw kase, di ka nag-o-online at wala kang Facebook kaya di mo alam.”

There were a few awkward glances and stares from some of my former classmates. Apparently, I forgot that not everyone from my high school class knew that I have already come out years prior to this reunion.  We had a reunion in 2003 (or was that 2004?) but I wasn’t out then.  Thanks to Friendster (then) and Facebook (now), I didn’t have to come out yet again.  And Read the rest of this entry »

There’s this relatively new craze on the Internet where people open themselves up to the world by answering questions from anyone. One of the more famous sites that offer this service is Formspring. Tumblr has also recently offered a similar service to its users. I have a Formspring.me account (the form is embedded on every blog post here) and my Tumblr “Ask Me” link is also working. Some users allow anonymous question-asking, while there are a few who prefer to keep it non-anonymous. My accounts allow both anonymous and non-anonymous questions.

Here are some of the more interesting questions asked of me on Formspring: Read the rest of this entry »

What do you get when you have male models lost and bored on an island after a plane crash?

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This, for me, would be the year of living dangerously. Or something like that. I didn’t have good relations with the year 2009 so I’m left with no choice but to grab 2010 by the neck and pound it hardly so I can get what I want out of it.

I have changed. Whether it’s for the better, I don’t know for sure. What I’m sure of is that I will take everything that comes my way and make sure I get something out of it.

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I had so much fun at the FabCasters’ Beginnings Party. It was great to have seen my fellow FabCasters again (after a long time, since I have been perennially absent during recordings). It was also nice to have seen and made chika with other gay blogger friends and long-lost friends, too.

We were on Patron Tequila and Soju and red wine, so you could just imagine how drunk people were. I haven’t drank in a while and I the last time I got drunk was something I couldn’t even remember. So this party was my way of saying hello to 2010. I have not consumed that much alcohol after I got sick so this party was my “buhos” party. I love getting drunk (don’t we all?). I’m just not sure if people around me are happy when I am.

This party was hot. Hot like Read the rest of this entry »

And so Ederlyn, Chembolyn, Globalyn and their friends are back online! And this time, singing the gay version of the Manny Villar campaign jingle.  Kung si Manny Villar ang tunay na mahirap, maging bakla ay tunay na mahirap!

(image via Keysi)

Full lyrics of Manny Villar Ang Tunay na Mahirap - Gayversion after the jump. Read the rest of this entry »

Dear 2010,
Yesterday I was at home wondering what you would be like. I didn’t have an idea as to what you would look like or what you had to offer me.  All I knew was that I hoped you were different and you would make me a better person. And after meeting you earlier today, I knew that was true.
I will not give you a list of things that I will do or change about myself for us to be happy together.  Instead, I will just go through each day with you one step at a time.  I will not ask you to make me grow as that is not what you’re here for.  All I can offer us both is hope.  I know somewhere along the way we’ll have our share of heartaches and disappointment about our lives, but I believe that we will get through it.  We will survive.
Your stay with me will be short-lived and I know you will leave me with nothing but memories.  And I sure do hope they will all be good ones.  Life will not be fair to us, but we sure will live with it for it is so goddamn worth living.
Welcome to my world, welcome to my life.
Yours,

AJ

The letter above is the same letter I wrote to the year 2007. It did not apply to the years 2008 and 2009. It does for this year.

Photo by Jayvee Fernandez

After a very very long time, I’m back.

I don’t really know why but I became too lazy to update this blog in the past couple of months. Maybe it’s because of the gastrointestinal disaster that hit me or maybe it’s because of so many other things that happened to my life. One thing I’m sure of is that I have transformed from being an Internet addict to a not-so-addict (adik pa rin!)! Oh and yeah, I have also transformed from being a busy chimney to a non-smoker.

The previous year was not good to me. I was optimistic about it and said that 2009 was going to be my year.  But it did not cooperate with me. I survived it though. I survived post-breakup pains, the move back in with the parents, the saying goodbye to independent life, the cancer scare, the post-quitting-smoking withdrawal, and the gastrointestinal disaster.

I learned a lot in 2009 – about myself and about the world. Life is short and may be unfair, but we all need to learn to live with it.

And I don’t really make too much sense right now.

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The 2009 Manila Pride March. December 5, 2009.

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